Still Tuning
When it comes to trades, I’m a humble Master of None. I know very little of just a few.
Much of the WørldMood content aims to help people find their voice — even though I am still very much in the process of finding my own.
The whole point of this movement here is helping others find a greater balance within themselves. It’s all about practicing mental hygiene, reinforcing a move-mentality, and simply staying well-connected. But even as the spokesperson of the WørldMood message and content, these are the very things that I struggle with the most.
I was never outspoken as a child. To this day, I care too much about what other people think, and I experience a lot of self-doubt. So, naturally it’s real easy for me to get lost in the impostor syndrome. Very often I catch myself sharing advice that I still struggle to put into practice myself, and I’ll feel guilty about it. I question if I should share it or not because I’m afraid to be seen as a fraud. — You tell me, is it wrong or fraudulent to offer advice that you don’t/can’t/haven’t been able to fully implement yourself?
Whenever I feel like I’m overthinking content, I have to remind myself, “just be the voice you wish you heard more of sooner.” — It doesn’t matter if I have internalized every tip or mastered every practice I share, because I’m not selling them.. I’m simply sharing them. And I share them as things that I believe can be a solution, or at least a means for improvement for someone else like me.
It’s typical to experience impostor syndrome when stepping into a new arena. As I embrace my aspirations to write & to speak, of course I want to sound credible, educated, professional, etc. — but beyond all of that, I need to be as authentic as possible. And authentically, I got a lotta different modes I can play with to get my point across. I got a lotta shit I should probably get off my chest.. I got more than a few things I’m healing. I’m no master, I’m still trying to re-groove all the toxic patterns I developed in my youth. I doubt, I judge, I label, I procrastinate, I dwell — oh my goodness, do I dwell.. I’m a hardcore dweller, for real… I just have trouble letting go, who doesn’t?
Because I always forget, I always have the pleasure of remembering how young 23 really is. For a long time I’ve felt like I woke up late, and attaining a sense of mastery was a now-or-never type deal.. But now I’m thinking that there’s no better time to explore. I’ve come to a point where I’m more than willing to explore my range and take some risks to find my way. However, this means that I must let go of the fear of making mistakes. Easier said than done, no doubt. This fear has kept me from putting out any content for nearly 2 years... 2 years! I let so much time go by because I just couldn’t allow myself to share anything that I didn’t admire myself. — ‘Cause if I can’t appreciate my work, how can I expect anyone else to?
Plenty of us are still tuning well into our 20’s and 30’s. Slow it down, focus on getting the wrinkles out. It’s okay to take your time to grow. It’s okay to sit back for a while and reorganize. Trust that good things come to those who wait. Be patient, but don’t procrastinate. “You can dream, but don’t neglect the execution” — Change // J. Cole
My vision is to inspire others to craft a greater balance within themselves & their environment. Though instead of voicing my message as an expert, I’m coming from the perspective of someone who’s trying their best to commit and actualize that themself. I pray one day I can represent what it looks like to master a craft & realize a vision, but right now I’m happy just showcasing what it looks like to get started.
Bless,
— T